true dancing will not make a disorder go away.
But it calmed me down. A friend (different group) arranged a dance for me last night at a place eeriely similar to where I first met the dance partner. I wore the dress I had when this whole episode exploded to remove memories of the last time I had those clothes on. Some people from that time where there too to celebrate my birthday. Been almost calm all day today. Another group of friends arranged for a dance tonight at a location with the same name that I used to go to but is now being hounded by ex partner and gang. They just want to help me exorcise my last image of them there and celebrate my birthday with a more positive memory. I go home tomorrow early morning.
Husband, son and friends have made plans to come and celebrate tomorrow night at a family restaurant as well. These friends came out of the woodwork after finding out that I made the decision to break off from the dance partner. I was not imagining things or exagerating things that he did, the inappropriate actions he took and the vengeance he has undertaken. Apparently, these friends disconnected from me because of him and their experiences with him and are now reconnecting because he is gone.
Psych doctor wants to "verify insurance information' before giving me an appointment so I guess we have to wait till Monday OR after Thanksgiving for that visit. Meanwhile, what am I supposed to do? I do what I can to self-medicate till the appointment is made or this hypomania passes. Thank you all for not trying to knock me down when I am already down. I am still here and listening to all your advises. I do read a lot and yes, I do a lot of research as well.